This! This is everything I love about fics. Yeah, I like cracky, schmoopy, fluffy, happily-ever-after with a side of porn shit too. Fics like yours, that twist your insides and rip out your heart, are very special to me. Why? Because when all the other fics are said and done, very few will stay in my mind and just make me *think*. I like thinking, I like the betrayal and icky feelings(I am *so* damaged). All in all I can count on one hand the fics that have nagged and tugged at my mind long after reading. Proud to say that this one's now on that list too. I'm bookmarking this and doing a more through re-read later. Thank you!